Here is what's supposed to happened...
There’s
something I would like to discuss. I was told to confront you guys in order to
solve a problem. Keep avoiding gets nothing done and everybody suffers. Talking
face to face might not be the best so I’ve chosen this method. Some of the
things below may offend you but was not expressed specifically to hurt you in
any way. You may correct me if I’m wrong. I really appreciate feedbacks cause
in that way I can only see what I did and can reflect upon.
Firstly, I
want to say going through this sem was not simple. Everyone had to study extra
and do extra. If one sem is like that, what happens in two sems. Everyone
unhappy and doing things for themselves.
I want to
point out the fact that I’m not a supercomputer and you can’t expect me to know
everything.I would really appreciate if
someone would take the initiative to do things at times. You just keep saying
he “ng deh ng diu”… “he so slow”…”he so last minute”. You could have always
asked “so when are we gonna start that that assignment?” Can we start this
week? I dun wan do last minute. I take this part now. Later I send to you. Or
“Can I do that part?”, What can I do? Can I help you with the slides? Can I
help you do the reference?
You can’t
just expect me to explain every single detail of the assignment to you. We
kinda read the same instruction paper, go to the same class, listen to the same
crap the lecturer is talking.
And even times
when I was absent and you’re present and you still pretend that you have zero
idea. So, I’m supposed to take all the blame when it’s wrong? The plus side, I
bet you know ten times the people I know. So, instead of taking initiative of
asking around, getting more info that might help the group, you just wait and
see what was given to you to do??
Another
issue, you dun have time? My time is not time, your time is time. You can go
out all night, do this do that. Have to study for midterm etc…We basically take the same subjects.
I get the
impression that you’re sick of picking up their leftovers and finishing things
up and has given up entirely. You’re thinking why should I help them? Why on
earth they can’t do anything? So now you just want to do your part and focus on
your studies more? Care less about everything else? Cause a group isn’t like
that..
Okay,
somehow I got some feedback that somehow you might think that you’re useless.
Whatever you do will eventually mean nothing. Well, did you ask yourself you’ve
tried in the first place? Consulted the lecturer personally? Asked what’s wrong
and not what should I put inside? Do some homework? You think your English is
beyond repair but did you put efforts in improving it?
Some even
told me you asked someone else to do the assignment for you. You know what, I
won’t mind as long as you did something and it’s useful. Copy paste? At least
clean up the evidence. Change the style? You just give the impression whatever
you’re doing is useless and doing it is stupid. You straight tell, I duno. How
should I do this? Send the whole thing and ask is this useable. Is this
correct?
Having fun is your thang. That’s it period. It’s like studying is not
one important part of your life and god knows whether you’re gonna work or you
just work for yourself. From foundation till now, normal people would have
learnt at least that little bit. That tiny bit of self-awareness. Or maybe I
just dun get you.
You know
you’re weak in certain areas and needs to be pushed at times. But somehow you
would prefer to avoid academics whenever possible.
I know I’m
the worst motivator out there. My management skills sucks. Not the best time
keeper. Not the best academically. Not the best relationship wise. All in all,
I may be nobody to you at all.
Spitting
all these ain’t no easy task and I’m not sure it’ll make things worse or
better. I just wish to clear things up before we proceed further. Just correct
me if I’m wrong.
Then I changed it into something more subtle
I want to say something and i think instead of hearing rumours its better to hear it from me.
I think many people misunderstood RM as something similar to FYP.
Although it is almost the same, most people have the perception that the
same group goes on to FYP. To be frank, RM is just a subject and like
everyone is saying the pre-FYP which is an experiment to test out the
cohesiveness of the group.
To express some of the members' opinions which includes me, not all members have contributed equally.
I admit I should have used this opportunity to have at least teach how a
group should operate. I admit I'm not be the best in everything. There
are things that even I do not know. I'm also human and I have my own
weaknesses. But at the same time also hoping people would have some self
awareness to show initiative in times and in helping out each other.
I'm not sure how you would react or think after this but I just want to
say FYP is not an easy task and I dont think any group out there would
be willing to accept a free rider. I also know that everything has ended
now and its a little too late to do anything. But just to say, if you
have a little self awareness, reflect on what you have done this
semester and do you think there is a need for some change.
***This message here is not meant to hurt anyone in particular but just
to be frank in telling the current situation. I'm sorry if you feel
offended in any way possible. You may or may not respond, its entirely
up to you.
At the end, nothing was done except telling out everything. LOL. I must admit I dun see a reason to kill all the relationships for a small matter. Maybe in fact they don't need to work in the future but I would definitely need to keep these relationships working whether for my own sake or their very sake. Let's just hope I turn out alive after this finals. Peace.....
