Monday, 31 December 2012

2013… The Next Level.


It’s the final hours of 2012 and yes, I’m still alive. Have not bored to death yet though. Haha. 2012 has indeed been one quite nice year. I’ve had so many my “First Times” throughout the year and the experience was immense. 2 years ago, so many things seemed impossible. Though today is not perfect but i can say that my life has gotten much better.

Year 2013 is going to be a big mark in my life and it’s time to bring the game to the next level. People may call it resolutions, others may call it goals. I just try to accomplish them within the time frame.
Wishing to reduce my childishness behaviour and build more maturity and independency within me. With a recent gadget upgrade, i think i can love myself time a lot more.

Next, try to have better “SKIN” as in of course better self presentation. Learn to look better at an economic cost of course. Not sure it’s possible within the short time frame but i really want to try and make acne go away.

I wanna learn Korean so badly too. Hope I have the determination to study it. If I succeed, then I could travel to Korea one day and have fun. If only i had the talent to sing or dance, maybe I could enter the Kpop industry too. LOL. This is just me daydreaming. Gotta work those vocals hard….
Like I’ve mentioned previously, improve greatly + tremendously on my PR skills. That’s one of the key essential surviving tool in this materialistic yet not so kind world. You never know how much truth there is in anyone’s talking. To say it nicely is that they’re being polite sarcastically, in other words they’re gonna backstab you when ever possible.

Learn that it’s everyone’s right to enjoy luxury. It’s not a crime. Just remember the bad times and treat others with respect they deserve. Once you’re capable, help those who are deserving and yet incapable of helping themselves.

Lastly, I foresee 2013 to be a challenging yet anticipated year. Nothing’s easy in the world right. Just hope that the bumps and potholes along the road gets lesser day by day. If this year turns out to be miraculously smooth, I’m gonna be on top of the world. Let’s just hope the same goes for the others who are wishing the same thing.

Wishing you all out there from the deepest of my heart, Happy 2013 and may the year ahead be an awesome journey in your life. Signing off for now. XOXO =DD

PS: I feel so bad for not texting or tweet or fb my friends to greet Happy New Year. I guess it's the intention and heart that counts. Throwing it all out here helps to release the inner tension and at the same time no other people have to take up the tension to think of ways to console me. I'm not sure why I'm not comfortable telling others anymore. Guess I'll have to learn to deal with things alone and independently. LOL... tomorrow should be fun. Arghhh, i want to go watch a concert of my favourite artist or something like that suddenly.

Friday, 28 December 2012

2012, The End ???...

Well, it's been quite some time. Recently, i've just opened a new account at wordpress.com. This was after reading reviews about how good it was and well, got to know it's something like tumblr at the free stage. Anything more you want, you've got to pay for it. Maybe, its more of a microblogging tool. The wordpress.org is said to be the better and more advanced version and i did try it out but it got way out of my hands. I did struggle a little setting up blogger but the wordpress one was just not in my league. Anyways, i did migrate all my stuff from my real "name" account to that since its new, nobody will see it. HAHA.

Everyone is saying that it's the last Friday of 2012, how are you celebrating yours? The thing is there's gonna be another last saturday, sunday, monday of 2012... How are you gonna celebrate them all? Maybe it just so happens that they fall on the weekend. Weee for all the people that gets to celebrate. And I'm just stuck at home doing nothing and writing this instead.

Let's look back at how I got through 2012. I remembered that I asked for a smooth ride throughout and the ride was pretty smooth till now but i can't deny that there were a few big potholes and hills that got in the way. I learned so much this year and have so many "first times" of my life. Downside is of course i got worse results. It was going down the roller coaster ride.

I've got to see so many of my friends that get to leave Malaysia for studies and some even got to travel to places such as Hong Kong, Thailand, Singapore, Taiwan, USA, Australia, China and etc. I must admit though, I haven been to even KL much, dun even try to mention outstation trips. Really hoped that one day I can get to travel when I want to and see great places and have fun like all normal people can and not get stuck because of financial constraints. Missed so many trips and rejected so many outing offers enough for others to get frustrated to try and ask anymore.

I was wishing things can turn around much as in environment wise but I think I should look into myself too. When I kind of think back, onli if others enjoy your presence would someone take the extra effort to try and convince you to come right. Not because they sympathize you for not having any company. I should really work on my PR skills real bad. How to actually make people to like me for who I am and not mold me into this person that people would like? This is really killing my brain cells.

Whenever I see rich brats buy stuffs like money was just printed paper I would get so upset, maybe not just upset but angry. Just because you can does not mean you have to. Think of all the people who does not have the privilege. Well, I can only say, enjoy while you can. What goes around comes around. Not being evil-minded though.

Got so off topic. I was also wishing to reconnect with people who was once in my life but then i guessed everyone moved on. You see them posting pictures and posts and what? you comment and that ends there. I see them face to face, and I can only stand and can't say a word. Tell them what? I was kind of regretting today that I told them about me, my personal stuffs. Not expecting any kind of sympathy and I just, maybe its just me, always get the sympathy look. So, if I was doing well today, would they be happy for me. Would they be happy that i was not that person once so desperate and suicidal? I really have no idea what they would think.

People say, the longer you stay with a person, the more you know about them. And the fact is, they are not the people who I once knew, maybe physically the same but urghhh, i dont know how to describe. Maybe I'm just anti-social or something.

I was given the book Unstoppable: The Power of Faith in Action by Nick Vujicic. Supposed to be motivational, undeniable fact i supposed. He's already in that condition and the things he can do. Maybe I should just try and be more positive about the world and try to ignore what people might think of me and just do the right thing. What goes around, comes around right? Karma I believe is what helps balances the world. Signing off for now. XOXO.


Saturday, 10 November 2012

Love or Hate??





Life's like a piece of old newspaper
Crumbled and never returning the favour
Things are never as easy as black and white
Hidden within like the spectrum of light

Love and hate, lie and break
I'll always be that piece of cake
Live to love, forgive to forget
Wished it was as simple as that

We used to say
Hello, how are you?
But now its became
I'm sorry, who are you?

So, there it goes
There's nothing I can do
Just go with flow
Someday it'll all glow

You were the gravity of my world
Now you're just another dust particle
You threw me out like paper plane
You'll never have that chance again

Don't act like you knew the real me
Like you were all I needed in me
You've never seen me behind walls
I know you'd want to see me fall.

We used to say
Hello, how are you?
But now its became
I'm sorry, who are you?

Love and hate, lie and break
I knew I had to take a break
Live to love, forgive to forget
If only it could be as simple as that

Like i've mentioned, i'm no music genius but i kinda like to write songs. i tried to send this to Kurt Hugo Schneider but then i've had no reply. Really would love to learn to compose or learn music one day if i have the means to a guitar or piano or maybe a violin. Just maybe one day. For now, any nice people out there would love to give this song a shot is most welcome.

My upcoming projects would include

  1. Haunted
  2. That Boy
  3. The Waiter Song

There are some others i had in mind but just couldnt remember. This kinda happens all the time. everytime i have like this awesome tune then like half an hour later i forget everything. Maybe i should record it or something next time. But then, what for? The question i had in mind. it's not like i'm a great singer or a fulll time music maker. Well, i'm just writing music to express the things i go through. Just see how it all turns out. 

For now, i have to get to bed. Nitez y'all. =DD
 

Moon or Sun??




The sun is never the moon at night
Like the moon is never seen in light
Seven colours within the spectrum of light
You'll never know which will suit you right

I'll try to choose one with you in sight
Though I know you'll never know inside.
Light like life or life like light
Pick either one left or right.

船到桥头自然直


船到桥头自然直呀
这不是一句台词吗
世上那来这么多奇迹
但他假的来很有意义

不要自找烦恼,制造问题
没有那么复杂,你浮夸了
只要经了全力,做好自己
没有人会说你,又笨又蠢

to be continued.......
not sure this can be continued. this was written early this year when my life was practically rained over with problems and things i wish wouldnt have existed. use if you wish too.. =)


曾经的那个你




Verse 1
曾说过一起创造世界,曾说过一起度过一切
当我们在一起的时候,终觉得时间停止转动
记得答应彼此的承诺,作个永远不变的自我
我以为能熬过这一切,却在争扎如何忘掉你

Hook
没有我的那些年,你还过得好好的
这是美好或残酷,答案永远在冷库
放不下这些的我,看着照片在联想
你离开得那一天,我为何如此冷淡

Chorus
曾经的那个你,说过永远一起
曾经的那个你,说过不分两比
曾经的那个你,让我付出一切
不停昼夜寻找,已不存在的你

Verse 2
那灿烂美好的笑容,只以为你带着面具
像作戏或画装一样,作个某样给人家看
我以为是我想太多,你和我变的不一样
那起勇气说服自己,却只发现你已变了

Hook
没有我的那些年,你还过得好好的
这是美好或残酷,答案永远在冷库
放不下这些的我,看着照片在联想
你离开得那一天,我为何如此冷淡

Chorus
曾经的那个你,说过永远一起
曾经的那个你,说过不分两比
曾经的那个你,让我付出一切
不停昼夜寻找,已不存在的你

我知道这不是你的错,只是我意想太多
这一切只能怪我,打开了门给个错的人
现在的你已不是你,却不想放弃我和你
偶尔听见你的声音,不得想起遗忘的过去
好想曾经的那个你,坦已知道是不可以
你会永远在我脑里,只留着我想要的你
曾经的那个你.

This song was written by me quite some time ago about a friend of mine and it kinda means quite alot to him and to me. Well, you might think who was the he/she who broke "A"'s heart so much, its actually more of a friendship song rather than a love song but you can all just take it into your own perspective. 

The song is about this 2 person who was once very close but over time became distant and later never saw or talked to each other. "A" saw how good a life the other was having even without his/her presence. "A" is happy for that person and will always remember the good times they had and the person "A" once knew which now could only be history. 

Well, since I am no music genius, the song cant be finished. Hope that there are any music producers out there or any musicians who are interested in the song may use the song if you like. "A"'s wishes is just to get to hear a complete song one day. 

Let's hope "A"'s wishes could be true one day. XOXO.... sunny dough. =D

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