2013… The Next Level.

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It’s the final hours of 2012 and yes, I’m still alive. Have not bored to death yet though. Haha. 2012 has indeed been one quite nice year. I’ve had so many my “First Times” throughout the year and the experience was immense. 2 years ago, so many things seemed impossible. Though today is not perfect but i can say that my life has gotten much better.

Year 2013 is going to be a big mark in my life and it’s time to bring the game to the next level. People may call it resolutions, others may call it goals. I just try to accomplish them within the time frame.
Wishing to reduce my childishness behaviour and build more maturity and independency within me. With a recent gadget upgrade, i think i can love myself time a lot more.

Next, try to have better “SKIN” as in of course better self presentation. Learn to look better at an economic cost of course. Not sure it’s possible within the short time frame but i really want to try and make acne go away.

I wanna learn Korean so badly too. Hope I have the determination to study it. If I succeed, then I could travel to Korea one day and have fun. If only i had the talent to sing or dance, maybe I could enter the Kpop industry too. LOL. This is just me daydreaming. Gotta work those vocals hard….
Like I’ve mentioned previously, improve greatly + tremendously on my PR skills. That’s one of the key essential surviving tool in this materialistic yet not so kind world. You never know how much truth there is in anyone’s talking. To say it nicely is that they’re being polite sarcastically, in other words they’re gonna backstab you when ever possible.

Learn that it’s everyone’s right to enjoy luxury. It’s not a crime. Just remember the bad times and treat others with respect they deserve. Once you’re capable, help those who are deserving and yet incapable of helping themselves.

Lastly, I foresee 2013 to be a challenging yet anticipated year. Nothing’s easy in the world right. Just hope that the bumps and potholes along the road gets lesser day by day. If this year turns out to be miraculously smooth, I’m gonna be on top of the world. Let’s just hope the same goes for the others who are wishing the same thing.

Wishing you all out there from the deepest of my heart, Happy 2013 and may the year ahead be an awesome journey in your life. Signing off for now. XOXO =DD

PS: I feel so bad for not texting or tweet or fb my friends to greet Happy New Year. I guess it's the intention and heart that counts. Throwing it all out here helps to release the inner tension and at the same time no other people have to take up the tension to think of ways to console me. I'm not sure why I'm not comfortable telling others anymore. Guess I'll have to learn to deal with things alone and independently. LOL... tomorrow should be fun. Arghhh, i want to go watch a concert of my favourite artist or something like that suddenly.

2012, The End ???...

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Well, it's been quite some time. Recently, i've just opened a new account at wordpress.com. This was after reading reviews about how good it was and well, got to know it's something like tumblr at the free stage. Anything more you want, you've got to pay for it. Maybe, its more of a microblogging tool. The wordpress.org is said to be the better and more advanced version and i did try it out but it got way out of my hands. I did struggle a little setting up blogger but the wordpress one was just not in my league. Anyways, i did migrate all my stuff from my real "name" account to that since its new, nobody will see it. HAHA.

Everyone is saying that it's the last Friday of 2012, how are you celebrating yours? The thing is there's gonna be another last saturday, sunday, monday of 2012... How are you gonna celebrate them all? Maybe it just so happens that they fall on the weekend. Weee for all the people that gets to celebrate. And I'm just stuck at home doing nothing and writing this instead.

Let's look back at how I got through 2012. I remembered that I asked for a smooth ride throughout and the ride was pretty smooth till now but i can't deny that there were a few big potholes and hills that got in the way. I learned so much this year and have so many "first times" of my life. Downside is of course i got worse results. It was going down the roller coaster ride.

I've got to see so many of my friends that get to leave Malaysia for studies and some even got to travel to places such as Hong Kong, Thailand, Singapore, Taiwan, USA, Australia, China and etc. I must admit though, I haven been to even KL much, dun even try to mention outstation trips. Really hoped that one day I can get to travel when I want to and see great places and have fun like all normal people can and not get stuck because of financial constraints. Missed so many trips and rejected so many outing offers enough for others to get frustrated to try and ask anymore.

I was wishing things can turn around much as in environment wise but I think I should look into myself too. When I kind of think back, onli if others enjoy your presence would someone take the extra effort to try and convince you to come right. Not because they sympathize you for not having any company. I should really work on my PR skills real bad. How to actually make people to like me for who I am and not mold me into this person that people would like? This is really killing my brain cells.

Whenever I see rich brats buy stuffs like money was just printed paper I would get so upset, maybe not just upset but angry. Just because you can does not mean you have to. Think of all the people who does not have the privilege. Well, I can only say, enjoy while you can. What goes around comes around. Not being evil-minded though.

Got so off topic. I was also wishing to reconnect with people who was once in my life but then i guessed everyone moved on. You see them posting pictures and posts and what? you comment and that ends there. I see them face to face, and I can only stand and can't say a word. Tell them what? I was kind of regretting today that I told them about me, my personal stuffs. Not expecting any kind of sympathy and I just, maybe its just me, always get the sympathy look. So, if I was doing well today, would they be happy for me. Would they be happy that i was not that person once so desperate and suicidal? I really have no idea what they would think.

People say, the longer you stay with a person, the more you know about them. And the fact is, they are not the people who I once knew, maybe physically the same but urghhh, i dont know how to describe. Maybe I'm just anti-social or something.

I was given the book Unstoppable: The Power of Faith in Action by Nick Vujicic. Supposed to be motivational, undeniable fact i supposed. He's already in that condition and the things he can do. Maybe I should just try and be more positive about the world and try to ignore what people might think of me and just do the right thing. What goes around, comes around right? Karma I believe is what helps balances the world. Signing off for now. XOXO.