Tuesday, 24 September 2013
Wednesday, 11 September 2013
Della丁噹[手掌心]MV官方版-中視古裝大戲[蘭陵王]片尾曲 (by binmusictaipei)
Della丁噹[手掌心]MV官方版-中視古裝大戲[蘭陵王]片尾曲 (by binmusictaipei)
Friday, 21 June 2013
Tuesday, 21 May 2013
How fake are you?
This topic kind of came up to me again recently and I got to learn some of the lessons regarding "life". So just how fake are you?
Remembered last time, when I was this teenage young boy in secondary school, I always seem to look at people and complain how can he be so fake? Why on earth does someone wants to cheat his/her way into a certain something? Its like there's no meaning to it. I just keep bla bla bla bla...... feeling angry and sad at the same time seeing those fake bitches get things they want and still be a laughing bitch in front of everyone else.
So as I got older, I came to see that it's actually quite a skill. How good are you in putting up a good front? Making people around you to be jealous/admire you from the distance. Of course everyone in this world has problems but do you really need to tell every single person you know like
Oh, I'm pregnant...... I had sex with my boss.... He is the love of my live...... I'm gay/lesbian....... I hate that bitch...
Cause you never know the so called truths you tell will come in your back biting your asses off. Seriously, I know how it feels. When you get so vulnerable, you tend to feel like you're the most pathetic person on earth and you feel like you want sympathy from everyone but yet you feel guilty and you don't want them. That crazy dilemma you have. But one thing you definitely be doing is telling somebody about it.
So here is the key point. Who do you actually tell? Cause like that "come back biting your ass off" theory, it's practically the same. The person you tell is extremely important depending on how trustworthy this person is and how much "trauma" the person can actually take. Everything can change if the person can't really take all these and even best friends can become strangers overnight.
So for example, I told "people" when I was at my most vulnerable stage about problems in my family, actually no one could empathy and they could only sympathy cause they all come from wealthy or at least not so bad families. They don't have to think about financial problems cause it'll always be their parents' problems.
Looking back, I was feeling like I was the black duck or whatever you call it, the weird one among the good breed. Having to understand things so early in life while others were having the time of their life. So how did it all end? We went our separate ways and a person did hand me some cash. The noble thing to do is of course not to accept it, well I really wanted to. The person kind of got away before I could and I was kind of nervous that day and I was just overwhelmed with everything back then on that very day. The cash did help afterwards with the registration and everything, although not much but I really appreciated the thought. The thing is I didn't really thought the person would share the story beyond the circle ie: the parents. More people got to know. That's where the cash came in. And I think you mix any relationship with cash, it's bound to get ugly. Plus, I didn't really do a lot of reconnecting myself and I was feeling a bit of how do you describe... shame maybe or just guilt cause didn't thought it would involve that many people and I was just ranting.
Another event was, I did told my teacher about the events that I'm going through. I admit at first I was trying to get her to give us some slack cause we did burn the whole bottle of midnight oil to finish stuff and yes I was angry back then that I was doing most of it. Just being rejected like that was like feeling everything that you've done was just for nothing. Burnt... But then, we clicked and I found out that we share quite a common past. She did found support from Christianity and at least its something.
She's quite successful today from what I can see, maybe not financially but every student would bound to be touched by her sincerity and gold heart. At some part, I did got through the stage with some supporting advice from her and can I say, she kinda saved my life somehow I think. Suicide was really replaying in my mind like every single day back then. Well, I wouldn't go through with it probably cause I've always thought suicide was stupid. But trust me when you're at the verge of hopelessness, the urge would definitely surpass your rationality.
When I told her how I ran like across blocks just to complete my registration and it was impossible to find the cash, plus no one in the bloody uni was willing to even give a damn, she did thought of lending me the money. I would of course refuse it cause that's like thousands of dollars and we're definitely not related. The thought was sincere though. But at the end, when I totally had no idea what to do, and was so hopeless, I sat down on an empty table where there was nobody around and I just prayed. Prayed for something good and at least that I could have done. I sms-ed my aunt and she called. After days of crazy ups and downs, she decided she could lend me the favour. I almost cried at the point. Happily did I rushed to take a bus and got home.
Another event would be this person who was such a bitch clammed all the bitchiness within and well until it was time when she can't take it in no more, all hell breaks loose. We got to see many true versions of her. Luckily, I did not tell her much about me. And we got to see how selfish of a person she can be. But this is also her positive trait if she thinks you are a "very good" friend of hers, she can definitely fight on behalf of you. Literally I mean.... LOL...
Getting back on track, I think everyone on earth is fake cause we are bound to hate someone at some point or at least lie about something, for good or for the bad. You just gotta deal with people of all types cause you don't get to choose the customers you serve. You can't just filter the bitches out and take in all the good and charming ones. It's a skill that is not so easy to learn and portray at the same time. As hateful you feel about particular something, you can't just be lashing it out onto everyone such as your boss unless of course you're a billionaire's son or the boss itself.
And like how I said not everyone has the privilege to that, we've gotta find our ways around. The important thing is to balance in between, and not let your fakeness take over and let it define you in reality. The next time you see someone acting in front of you, don't be angry, be jealous and learn how the person is doing it. Cause trust me, one day you'll be needing the skill to survive in this crazy complicated world that is just not black and white but full with many, many shades of grayness in between. There's no a 100% right and a 100% wrong in things especially when you're working in the corporate society. I didn't get how crucial the skills of social was, now I definitely do. So after all the events of life I've been through, I would say I'm not that fake, I just deal with different people with different versions of me. Hahahaha...... So tell me, how fake do you think you are?
Sunday, 19 May 2013
You’re Never Gonna Feel Sorry
You’re Never Gonna Feel Sorry
Let me tell you a story
How it get all so blurry
Acting like we’re nobody
Trying to be cool and cocky
The world doesn’t owe you nothing
It’s not like your dad can buy you everything
Wouldn’t give a damn if I was wrong or right
You just think you’re the boss alright
Chorus
You’re never gonna feel sorry
What you’ve said, what you’ve done
It’ll always be inside my mind
Telling me to understand it all
Waiting for me to fall then crawl
I’m sorry that you’re just never gonna feel sorry, sorry……
Verse 2
Lies were all covered in snow
Trying to be the perfect and all
You thought I would fall for it all
Think again cause I’m not a ball
You would only care for so much
To give a damn shit about me or such
Bullshit is all I could sense from you now
You’re not innocent so just bow down
Bridge
I’ve always been thinking high and low
Whether it was me who broke the flow
Telling me you know what it was like
Trying to sympathize like I’m some mice
You will never get to see my tear stained face
Get lost before I make you rest in a case
I can hear you say sorry all day
Forgive but never forget is what I’ll say
二号房的恋人
Version 1
二号房的恋人
Verse 1
这世界什么叫恋人，恋人恋人单恋的人
男男女女变成情人，不分男女去爱个人
看着眼前那对恋人，不知慨怎么去容忍
想要爱却怕被人爱，失去了爱才懂的爱
Chorus
达进了二号房的你，就该做回原来的你
要爱就去爱的够狠，别怕面对所有憎恨
这是你要恋的人吗，或是你想要喝的茶
一男一女天生一对，没人过问度过一生
Verse 2
房里做个K歌之王，房外做个吹水大王
老是飞去荷兰的你，站着呆着不能飞起
Chorus
达进了二号房的你，就该做回原来的你
要爱就去爱的够狠，别怕面对所有憎恨
这是你要恋的人吗，或是你想要喝的茶
一男一女天生一对，没人过问度过一生
Bridge
恋恋爱爱不就那么简单
想的太多，反而没那么简单
Chorus
要爱就去爱的够狠，别怕面对所有憎恨
当房里没有任何人，一男一女任抱任亲
天生一对没人过问，做对二号房的恋人
Version 2
二号房的恋人
Verse 1
这世界什么叫恋人，恋人恋人单恋的人
男男女女变成情人，不分男女去爱个人
看着眼前那对恋人，不知慨怎么去容忍
想要爱却怕被人爱，失去了爱才懂的爱
Chorus
一男一女天生一对，没人过问度过一生
要爱就爱，要恨就恨，别怕面对所有憎恨
去爱个够狠，做对二号房的恋人
Verse 2
房里做个K歌之王，房外做个吹水大王
老是飞去荷兰的你，站着呆着不能飞起
Chorus
一男一女天生一对，没人过问度过一生
要爱就爱，要恨就恨，别怕面对所有憎恨
去爱个够狠，做对二号房的恋人
Bridge
恋恋爱爱不就那么简单
想的太多，反而变的不简单
Chorus
一男一女天生一对，没人过问度过一生
要爱就爱，要恨就恨，别怕面对所有憎恨
去爱个够狠
一男一女任抱任亲，天生一对没人过问
放下所有憎恨，度过一生，做对二号房的恋人
I'm not sure what this is
Ok, so it's been quite sometime since I last blogged and kind of lost touch of where I stopped last time. So, let's recall some of my recent events. I've just completed my second year heading towards the final starting in a few weeks time. I've totally messed up many (and I mean many) of the relationships in my circle and it's a little crazy till I've got tired of trying to fix any and leave things be. Yes, I've kinda learnt the art of not bothering or rather ignoring facts that would lead to a more complicated life of mine. Wonder what on earth happened. The last semester was just a crazy hell of a ride and I guess the stress got to everyone. Breaking strings off and also making new connections at the same time. We just get to know more about the people around me.
So, remember the post i wrote about rage. (http://sunnydough.blogspot.com/2013/04/outrage.html)
Well, I'm not sure how it will turn out like a week from now, great decisions will totally change my life. It's the god's decision whether we are meant to be or not so much.
I just dont see why people can change so much. From the people I knew back in foundation years, now they've totally become people I barely know. Is it because of me or them? Is it my problem or their problem? I've kinda tried my best to turn tables, make it good for people. Am I just not trying hard enough? I know I use poverty as an excuse but seriously, the motivation talk I went to enlightened me of something called fear of poverty. There's even such a fear and yes I admit I have such a fear.
Unlike little rich brats, people like us can't just choose to do the things we want. It's not like if we want a better resume we just join events or even summer internships in other countries. We have so much to think about even if it was a small little trip in our very own hometown. Every time people tell me they're going for holidays during the semester break, do you know how jealous I am. How heart broken I am when every single person can go on a break after battling the war for so long and I can only go home and yet get nagged for not getting a job.
Not that I'm complaining going home is a bad thing, but my version of a holiday is just rest and no one disturbs you. You barely see sunshine and be vampire. (Like what I'm doing now.) Seriously, it kinda pisses me off seeing people upload all their happy faces on holidays in facebook where they're having the greatest time of their life.
But at the same time, I also know not many people share the same privilege as those rich asses. There are also people who do not get to enjoy and have to work. Yet, I'm not sure why I'm so offensive when it comes to work. Is it because I've had these bad experience working in cafes and restaurants that I label working as a totally badass thing to do. Maybe yes, I'm trying to escape all those being bossed around stuff. Maybe I just need to get a job in a different industry other than F&B.
As I grow older, I get the fact that the world does not revolve around me. It's not like my problem is anything serious. I just have to accept the fact that we are living in these conditions and we are in no position to question so many other things. Let's talk about the symptoms of fear in poverty and I'll illustrate some maybe.
Indifference - I tend to be indifferent from choosing like better stuff or bad stuff, cause I know I'll never get the good stuff. It feels useless even to make a choice.
Indecision - I tend to have problems making decisions. It's like every decision is a big thing and next we die or we survive.
Doubt - I doubt every single detail. I doubt the people around me. I doubt whether am I making the same mistakes or am I making the correct decision.
Worry - I worry that if I make a wrong decision, everything is going to die around me. We're practically dead.
Over-cautious - From all of the above, you can see how cautious I am with things. I just think too much.
Procrastination - From thinking too much, I delay as much as possible before making any final decisions.
Kinda get what I mean. It's like if you have financial back up, you're not worried if you screw up or anything. Let's just say you got into an accident, you are totally covered financially. If i get into any accident, I'm most probably dead or end up with greater debt.
Kids with cash tend to be more confident. (I bet this would be a great study topic). They are better at showing who they want to be and they are not afraid of making mistakes cause they can afford to. They can just say, I want to join that course. I want to take this class. Its to heavy, why don't I just extend the semester. I probably gonna fail this subject, I should just drop it and retake it next semester. I'm not doing well in this course, well, I should change to another.
Seriously, everyone says do what your heart says, in reality every single things relates you to money. I can't afford to do any of the above. And now you understand where I come from. Why I'm just furious?
If I have the means and capabilities, I would have definitely credit transferred to another uni or college and graduate there. Live a better life and enjoy more I supposed. Can't really imagine what life would be if things were different. Am I up for the game?
I just think a lot of people are taking things for granted and I wish parents these days would be more aware of the consequences of their actions cause bad things are really gonna happen in the future. I am really hoping to see a better future and one day, yes I want to say, I'm gonna be able to provide and I'm gonna be able to travel all over the world.
This song really got to me a long time ago and yet I'm addicted now again. Yes, it's no other than Emeli Sande's >>> Read All About It (Pt 3)
"I wanna sing, I wanna shout
I wanna scream till the words dry out
So put it in all of the papers,
I'm not afraid
They can read all about it "
Yes, I wanna sing till there's not a word left
Just let them read all about it
I'm not afraid.
Did some homework during my break, so gonna post it up. Maybe somebody will learn to appreciate what I did one day.
Here are some of the travel photos I stole from facebook of course. Enjoy. XDDDD
Sunday, 28 April 2013
Long Weekend (Thoongsook 13)
The story involves six teenagers who head to mysterious isolated island for a weekend of partying. Trouble is, the island has a dark and ancient history, of a sacrificial rite held during the so-called "blood moon" that is meant to keep the "devouring ghost" at bay. And of course, these kids are visiting the island during that very time.
But let's back up a bit, to the boyhood of the title character Thongsuk. He was always not quite right and a bit sickly. It's in the school infirmary where he's resting and his best friend Nam comes with a headache. Thongsuk, wanting to impress the girl, has her take off his amulet necklace, which is supposed to ward off ghosts. She does so and Thongsuk immediately lapses into a ghost-caused seizure and bangs his head on the bedframe. From then on, because of his head injury, Thongsuk is even more off and is consequently bullied by the other kids. Only Nam defends him.
So when Nam (Cheeranat Yusanon), the guys Jack (Acharanat Ariyaritwikol) and Boi (Sean Jindachot) and the lipstick lesbian girlfriends Beam (Busarin Yokpraipan) and Pui (Gitlapat Garasutraiwan) make plans to go to the island without Thongsuk (Chinnawut Intarakusin), Thongsuk schemes to somehow surprise them.
Instead, everyone is surprised, thanks to the evil spirits on the island and Thongsuk being a conduit for them.
What follows is the usual setup of these types of teen-slasher movies in which the hedonistic characters get what's coming to them as they are possessed, picked off or devoured one by one by a mysterious force. Blood and gore fly as grey, smoky CGI baddies haunt the kids. It's like Cabin in the Woods, though less tongue-in-cheek. Backwards-bending characters bring to mind the current Hollywood hit horror Mama.
Nam emerges as the heroine, who must at all costs keep a candle burning to ward off the bad spirits and survive the night.
Of course there's a red herring or two to put you and Nam off the scent. Let's just say if you're in a horror movie and Wonderful Town's Anchalee Saisoontorn turns up as your mother, you might not want to trust her.
Overall, its actually not bad. You should check it out.
Davichi(다비치)_Turtle(거북이)
거북아 그 속도론 멀리 못 도망가
geobuga geu sokdoron meolli mot domangga
게다가 그 길은 더 멀고 험하잖아
gedaga geu gireun deo meolgo heomhajanha
상처가 아물고 다 나으면 떠나가
sangcheoga amulgo da naeumyeon tteonaga
진심이야 그럼 그 때 보내 줄 테니까
jinsimiya geureom geu ttae bonae jul tenikka
숨지마 차라리 내 맘을 훔치지마
sumjima charari nae mameul humchijima
거짓말 느리고 느린 너의 걸음마
geojitmal neurigo neurin neoui georeumma
내 가슴 깊이 하는 말
nae gaseum gipi haneun mal
내게로 와요
naegero wayo
마음을 둘 곳도 없고 더 갈 곳도 없는
maeumeul dul gotdo eopgo deo gal gotdo eomneun
슬픈 거북이 한 마리
seulpeun geobugi han mari
상처가 많아 너 혼자서
sangcheoga manha neo honjaseo
매일 외롭게 숨는 거니
maeil oeropge sumneun geoni
너를 지킬 수 없고 더 사랑도 없는
neoreul jikil su eopgo deo sarangdo eomneun
내 가슴 아픈 이야기
nae gaseum apeun iyagi
조금 늦어도 좋아
jogeum neujeodo joha
한 걸음 한 걸음 천천히
han georeum han georeum cheoncheonhi
하루만 더 지나면 괜찮아질거야
haruman deo jinamyeon gwaenchanhajilgeoya
자꾸만 주문처럼 외우는 혼잣말
jakkuman jumuncheoreom oeuneun honjatmal
거북아 널 볼 때면 내 모습 같아
geobuga neol bol ttaemyeon nae moseup gata
눈물 나 미친 듯이 계속 흘러나와
nunmul na michin deusi gyesok heulleonawa
새싹이 나겠지 꽃이 보이겠지
saessagi nagetji kkochi boigetji
내 눈물의 사랑은 씨앗을 꼭 품겠지
nae nunmurui sarangeun ssiaseul kkok pumgetji
내 가슴 깊이 하는 말
nae gaseum gipi haneun mal
내게로 와요
naegero wayo
마음을 둘 곳도 없고 더 갈 곳도 없는
maeumeul dul gotdo eopgo deo gal gotdo eomneun
슬픈 거북이 한 마리
seulpeun geobugi han mari
상처가 많아 너 혼자서
sangcheoga manha neo honjaseo
매일 외롭게 숨는 거니
maeil oeropge sumneun geoni
너를 지킬 수 없고 더 사랑도 없는
neoreul jikil su eopgo deo sarangdo eomneun
내 가슴 아픈 이야기
nae gaseum apeun iyagi
조금 늦어도 좋아
jogeum neujeodo joha
한걸음한걸음 천천히
hangeoreumhangeoreum cheoncheonhi
나보다 느린 네 발걸음에 맞춰 걸으며
naboda neurin ne balgeoreume matchwo georeumyeo
더 이상 너 혼자 울지 않도록
deo isang neo honja ulji antorok
you're always be my
you're always be my
always be my love
always be my love
마음을 둘 곳도 없고 더 갈 곳도 없는
maeumeul dul gotdo eopgo deo gal gotdo eomneun
슬픈 거북이 한 마리(제발 날 떠나지마)
seulpeun geobugi han mari(jebal nal tteonajima)
상처가 많아 너 혼자서
sangcheoga manha neo honjaseo
매일 외롭게 숨는 거니
maeil oeropge sumneun geoni
너를 지킬 수 없고 더 사랑도 없는
neoreul jikil su eopgo deo sarangdo eomneun
내 가슴 아픈 이야기
nae gaseum apeun iyagi
조금 늦어도 좋아
jogeum neujeodo joha
한걸음 한 걸음 천천히
hangeoreum han georeum cheoncheonhi
Outrage
Here is what's supposed to happened...
There’s something I would like to discuss. I was told to confront you guys in order to solve a problem. Keep avoiding gets nothing done and everybody suffers. Talking face to face might not be the best so I’ve chosen this method. Some of the things below may offend you but was not expressed specifically to hurt you in any way. You may correct me if I’m wrong. I really appreciate feedbacks cause in that way I can only see what I did and can reflect upon.
Firstly, I want to say going through this sem was not simple. Everyone had to study extra and do extra. If one sem is like that, what happens in two sems. Everyone unhappy and doing things for themselves.
I want to point out the fact that I’m not a supercomputer and you can’t expect me to know everything.I would really appreciate if someone would take the initiative to do things at times. You just keep saying he “ng deh ng diu”… “he so slow”…”he so last minute”. You could have always asked “so when are we gonna start that that assignment?” Can we start this week? I dun wan do last minute. I take this part now. Later I send to you. Or “Can I do that part?”, What can I do? Can I help you with the slides? Can I help you do the reference?
You can’t just expect me to explain every single detail of the assignment to you. We kinda read the same instruction paper, go to the same class, listen to the same crap the lecturer is talking. And even times when I was absent and you’re present and you still pretend that you have zero idea. So, I’m supposed to take all the blame when it’s wrong? The plus side, I bet you know ten times the people I know. So, instead of taking initiative of asking around, getting more info that might help the group, you just wait and see what was given to you to do??
Another issue, you dun have time? My time is not time, your time is time. You can go out all night, do this do that. Have to study for midterm etc…We basically take the same subjects.
I get the impression that you’re sick of picking up their leftovers and finishing things up and has given up entirely. You’re thinking why should I help them? Why on earth they can’t do anything? So now you just want to do your part and focus on your studies more? Care less about everything else? Cause a group isn’t like that..
Okay, somehow I got some feedback that somehow you might think that you’re useless. Whatever you do will eventually mean nothing. Well, did you ask yourself you’ve tried in the first place? Consulted the lecturer personally? Asked what’s wrong and not what should I put inside? Do some homework? You think your English is beyond repair but did you put efforts in improving it?
Some even told me you asked someone else to do the assignment for you. You know what, I won’t mind as long as you did something and it’s useful. Copy paste? At least clean up the evidence. Change the style? You just give the impression whatever you’re doing is useless and doing it is stupid. You straight tell, I duno. How should I do this? Send the whole thing and ask is this useable. Is this correct?
Having fun is your thang. That’s it period. It’s like studying is not one important part of your life and god knows whether you’re gonna work or you just work for yourself. From foundation till now, normal people would have learnt at least that little bit. That tiny bit of self-awareness. Or maybe I just dun get you.
You know you’re weak in certain areas and needs to be pushed at times. But somehow you would prefer to avoid academics whenever possible.
I know I’m the worst motivator out there. My management skills sucks. Not the best time keeper. Not the best academically. Not the best relationship wise. All in all, I may be nobody to you at all. Spitting all these ain’t no easy task and I’m not sure it’ll make things worse or better. I just wish to clear things up before we proceed further. Just correct me if I’m wrong.
Then I changed it into something more subtle
I want to say something and i think instead of hearing rumours its better to hear it from me. I think many people misunderstood RM as something similar to FYP. Although it is almost the same, most people have the perception that the same group goes on to FYP. To be frank, RM is just a subject and like everyone is saying the pre-FYP which is an experiment to test out the cohesiveness of the group.
To express some of the members' opinions which includes me, not all members have contributed equally.
I admit I should have used this opportunity to have at least teach how a group should operate. I admit I'm not be the best in everything. There are things that even I do not know. I'm also human and I have my own weaknesses. But at the same time also hoping people would have some self awareness to show initiative in times and in helping out each other.
I'm not sure how you would react or think after this but I just want to say FYP is not an easy task and I dont think any group out there would be willing to accept a free rider. I also know that everything has ended now and its a little too late to do anything. But just to say, if you have a little self awareness, reflect on what you have done this semester and do you think there is a need for some change.
***This message here is not meant to hurt anyone in particular but just to be frank in telling the current situation. I'm sorry if you feel offended in any way possible. You may or may not respond, its entirely up to you.
At the end, nothing was done except telling out everything. LOL. I must admit I dun see a reason to kill all the relationships for a small matter. Maybe in fact they don't need to work in the future but I would definitely need to keep these relationships working whether for my own sake or their very sake. Let's just hope I turn out alive after this finals. Peace.....
There’s something I would like to discuss. I was told to confront you guys in order to solve a problem. Keep avoiding gets nothing done and everybody suffers. Talking face to face might not be the best so I’ve chosen this method. Some of the things below may offend you but was not expressed specifically to hurt you in any way. You may correct me if I’m wrong. I really appreciate feedbacks cause in that way I can only see what I did and can reflect upon.
Firstly, I want to say going through this sem was not simple. Everyone had to study extra and do extra. If one sem is like that, what happens in two sems. Everyone unhappy and doing things for themselves.
I want to point out the fact that I’m not a supercomputer and you can’t expect me to know everything.I would really appreciate if someone would take the initiative to do things at times. You just keep saying he “ng deh ng diu”… “he so slow”…”he so last minute”. You could have always asked “so when are we gonna start that that assignment?” Can we start this week? I dun wan do last minute. I take this part now. Later I send to you. Or “Can I do that part?”, What can I do? Can I help you with the slides? Can I help you do the reference?
You can’t just expect me to explain every single detail of the assignment to you. We kinda read the same instruction paper, go to the same class, listen to the same crap the lecturer is talking. And even times when I was absent and you’re present and you still pretend that you have zero idea. So, I’m supposed to take all the blame when it’s wrong? The plus side, I bet you know ten times the people I know. So, instead of taking initiative of asking around, getting more info that might help the group, you just wait and see what was given to you to do??
Another issue, you dun have time? My time is not time, your time is time. You can go out all night, do this do that. Have to study for midterm etc…We basically take the same subjects.
I get the impression that you’re sick of picking up their leftovers and finishing things up and has given up entirely. You’re thinking why should I help them? Why on earth they can’t do anything? So now you just want to do your part and focus on your studies more? Care less about everything else? Cause a group isn’t like that..
Okay, somehow I got some feedback that somehow you might think that you’re useless. Whatever you do will eventually mean nothing. Well, did you ask yourself you’ve tried in the first place? Consulted the lecturer personally? Asked what’s wrong and not what should I put inside? Do some homework? You think your English is beyond repair but did you put efforts in improving it?
Some even told me you asked someone else to do the assignment for you. You know what, I won’t mind as long as you did something and it’s useful. Copy paste? At least clean up the evidence. Change the style? You just give the impression whatever you’re doing is useless and doing it is stupid. You straight tell, I duno. How should I do this? Send the whole thing and ask is this useable. Is this correct?
Having fun is your thang. That’s it period. It’s like studying is not one important part of your life and god knows whether you’re gonna work or you just work for yourself. From foundation till now, normal people would have learnt at least that little bit. That tiny bit of self-awareness. Or maybe I just dun get you.
You know you’re weak in certain areas and needs to be pushed at times. But somehow you would prefer to avoid academics whenever possible.
I know I’m the worst motivator out there. My management skills sucks. Not the best time keeper. Not the best academically. Not the best relationship wise. All in all, I may be nobody to you at all. Spitting all these ain’t no easy task and I’m not sure it’ll make things worse or better. I just wish to clear things up before we proceed further. Just correct me if I’m wrong.
Then I changed it into something more subtle
I want to say something and i think instead of hearing rumours its better to hear it from me. I think many people misunderstood RM as something similar to FYP. Although it is almost the same, most people have the perception that the same group goes on to FYP. To be frank, RM is just a subject and like everyone is saying the pre-FYP which is an experiment to test out the cohesiveness of the group.
To express some of the members' opinions which includes me, not all members have contributed equally.
I admit I should have used this opportunity to have at least teach how a group should operate. I admit I'm not be the best in everything. There are things that even I do not know. I'm also human and I have my own weaknesses. But at the same time also hoping people would have some self awareness to show initiative in times and in helping out each other.
I'm not sure how you would react or think after this but I just want to say FYP is not an easy task and I dont think any group out there would be willing to accept a free rider. I also know that everything has ended now and its a little too late to do anything. But just to say, if you have a little self awareness, reflect on what you have done this semester and do you think there is a need for some change.
***This message here is not meant to hurt anyone in particular but just to be frank in telling the current situation. I'm sorry if you feel offended in any way possible. You may or may not respond, its entirely up to you.
At the end, nothing was done except telling out everything. LOL. I must admit I dun see a reason to kill all the relationships for a small matter. Maybe in fact they don't need to work in the future but I would definitely need to keep these relationships working whether for my own sake or their very sake. Let's just hope I turn out alive after this finals. Peace.....
Thursday, 21 March 2013
AH BOYS TO MEN 1&2 (新兵正传1&2)
Song titled: Brother
Together we will chiong
On and on and on
Till the break of dawn
Through all the times we had
Whether they be good or bad
We have stood together as comrades
Day in day out training under the sun
From all walks of life
We have bonded as one
These memories I’ll hold forever
We’re not just buddies
We are a band of brothers
Now as a boy in Singapore, we have done our thing
After finishing, wonder what the future will bring
Will we still be close after time passes by
Or is this really the time when we say goodbye
Nobody really knows but as time goes
We all realise what matters is that
We were bros at one point in time
We were all we had
Sharing everything from soap to bread
Some of us will go to SCS (Specialist Cadet School)
And some of us will go to OCS (Officer Cadet School)
But you know it really doesn’t matter who’s the best
Cause at the end of the day we represent the same crest
I confess no less this is one of life’s tests
Braving through the rain while we serve NS
And what we gain are moments that will flash as
memories
That reminds us of when we were soldiers when we feel the breeze
From strangers to friends to brothers from buddies
Two years of our time can’t wait to ORD
But don’t get me wrong when I sing this song
Cause this is truly where I belong
From strangers to friends to brothers from buddies
Two years of our time can’t wait to ORD
But don’t get me wrong we will miss Tekong
That’s why we are marching singing this song
And whoever would have thought we would be this close
I know the memories and good times we will miss the most
Went to strangers to friends to brothers from buddies
Kena confine in camp together doing guard duty
And we know it’s our duty but it feels so sian
When 我不能book out 看我girlfriend 的脸
Tapi gua understand I am not the only one
Who has to go through training that is hardly fun
I got my brothers from different races and religions
And we have stood together as one， to serve our nation
All we really need is just a little patience
Two years will pass by like poetry in motion
Emotions, training in the wild wild jungle
United we stand, divided we crumble
I know， we will miss this， when it’s gone
And reminisce about the times we had in Pulau Tekong
From strangers to friends to brothers from buddies
Two years of our time can’t wait to ORD
But don’t get me wrong when I sing this song
Cause this is truly where I belong
From strangers to friends to brothers from buddies
From ah boys to men can’t wait to ORD
But don’t get me wrong we will miss Tekong
That’s why we are marching singing this song
From strangers to friends to brothers from buddies
Two years of our time can’t wait to ORD
But don’t get me wrong when I sing this song
Cause this is truly where I belong
From strangers to friends to brothers from buddies
From ah boys to men can’t wait to ORD
But don’t get me wrong we will miss Tekong
That’s why we are marching singing this song
We will forever be singing this song
Cause this is where I’m from
And no matter when the memories fade away
I will always remember
And keep you guys in my heart
Because without you guys
I will never be who I am today
A 20th Jack Neo production. All new experience. I really like this movie a lot and I can relate so much although I've never join NS but the experiences were so similar to my scouting years. I would love so much to write a detailed post on it but time doesn't allow me too.
Quoting it's really a movie close to life and not just about NS and military. You laugh and you cry and you go through life. This is a little something i wrote inspired form the original lyrics and some from my own experience. Sometimes in life, memories are the only thing you get to bring along.
Please support the movie cause its just too awesome for an asian movie, especially Singaporean. All the actors are newbies as well but under the well leadership of a great director Jack Neo whom I admire a lot and would hope to have a chance to learn from or work with someday. Support support support Ah Boys To Men 1 & 2. Part 3 is rumored to be released at the end of the year.
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Tuesday, 12 February 2013
How I became a passive hater of Al-Ikhsan, the shoe shop.
Ok. So here is what happened. The last time I bought my shoe was like 2 and 1/2 years ago. It was my very first branded shoe from Nike. Well, I liked it very very much and it's like my day-to-day shoe. I wear to every single occasion, to school, outings, dinner, shopping and etc. But then, every shoe is bound to have its days where one day it'll wear out. Well, it's starting too. So, I've decided to invest into another with my very own cash. Looking for a similar pattern and style, I've searched up and down.
In Ipoh Parade itself, Nike shop to Adidas shop to Al-Ikhsan. There isn't any that got to me. But there was one grayish nike in Al-ikhsan that caught my sisters eye but there wasn't any size left but size 8. So, we went to the original nike shop but it was also out of stock.
Being so dissappointed, we decided to go to Aeon in Station 18. There were New Balance, Skechers, Adidas, Royal Sporting House and Al-Ikhsan.
In Al-Ikhsan, after trying out a few shoes, i found one that i kinda really love. But then, the promoter guy said there was onli size 9 and after that was size 12. I was like that's too big. The reason i got so confused over my shoe size was because when I went for roller skating last week, the guy gave me size 9. So i thought, that was my shoe size. Being stupid me, I actually paid for the shoe. Happily went home with it.
The next day was CNY. There was actually a gut in me telling me not to wear it, but the others were saying why not wear it. I was like OKkkk...
Seriously, I've only worn it for like 2 times. Then i realised maybe it wasn't that fitting. I went to Ipoh Parade (cause it was nearer) to ask about their exchange policy. The lady at the counter said that I could exchange for a different size and maybe a different model if there wasnt any size available.
Happily I went home to clean the shoe till it was as sparkly clean as possible. But then to my disappointment, the lady at Aeon Station 18 rejected. She even called Ipoh Parade and her boss. I was very thankful for my mum for doing soemthing onli a mother could do. She actually "pull down her face and integrity" to actually negotiate with the shop.
Seriously, maybe they could have asked for an extra payment of RM 30-50 for cleaning the shoes or something instead of just letting me suffer with the shoe.
I admit that it was my fault for not knowing my shoe size.
But I find that it was also their fault in the sense, they told me there was no size 11. They said after size 9 was size 12. Padahal, today I went there was.
Lesson learnt,
- not to buy stuff in a rush manner.
- have a trusted advisor beside you when you shop
- at least a thumb's length in front of your toe for shoe size
- never really trust a promoter's words
- visit a few store for the same design you love.
PS: the staff was acting to be nice, but I know she's just cursing us like crazy. Seriously, we are civilized people so we left without creating chaos.
So the only solution left now is
- Sell the shoe for RM 150
- Just wear it till it tears.
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| My original shoe |
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| the shoe I love |
To compare, the Nike one was more durable than de Adidas one. Look at the base, its already a little scratched compared to the Nike's.
It looks brand new right, with a little more polishing... it could really look very new. They could probably sell it during sale or something. I wouldn't mind getting this if it was the last pair and if its my size. Cause, once you wear it, the base is bound to be scratched what. Ishhh.... I would only look at the sides and surface colour lor.
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