So this week is the first week of the brand new sem. So, maybe I was cut off from the outside world for so long, it feels so different and awkward I guess. I don't really know how to describe the feeling. The group just doesn't feel so groupy. I feel so alone. Not sure I've talked about my new phone here but I dont know how to let someone else know without them being judgy.
I dont know what people will say. Cause I dont see it as something to boast about but if I continue to keep it hidden, what else people will be thinking.
Other than that, someone from my old life asked me out for some kind of reunion. I could have easily said yes or something but I dont have the transport and all. Besides, the people he had invited, I dont really know much of them. Am I just being too distant or what? I feel like I have cut out a lot from my old life. I dont feel like meeting up with anyone till like I have something established. I just feel so ashamed now.
So what to do now?? Haihhhhh... Pi Chi So...
I met so many people today. First one was the one above. Then the other one was the guy who kept asking me to help him academically wise. I mean there is a very big difference in helping out a friend and being directly used as guinea pig. SO yeah. I got fed up till a point that I decided not to reply any messages. WHat excuse is attending your sister's wedding and not be able to finish your own homework. Your not a kid anymore, learn to prioritize and manage your time please.
After that, when I was all sweaty and hot, I met another guy from one of the subjects. We just said Hi, then why do you look so hot and sweaty, and I replied cause I came from somewhere far and was walking, well he said he came from the same place. Lol. then another human appeared in front of me. And i was so rude to ignore this guy and he just quietly walked away. I guess I unknowingly make a lot of people to hate me. Funny me. But the second guy was talking about all this group thing which is not really important and not even relevant to me. But then he kept talking and I dont even understand bits of it. Though I know it relates to one of my friend but should I pretend to not know. I kind of offered another choice for my friend but he decided to follow this guy. So, haih... I so evil. Ya, Just think that I'm the bad guy here.
Arghh, so the conclusion to this crazy situation is that I duno what to do. I've been trying to hard to connect with this group that I'm not sure they really enjoy my existence. Maybe I should try and approach another type of people and let others know me better. Can anyone out there tell me what is wrong with me?
Haihhh... that's the end of this post I guess. Keep repeating the same old crap. You must be boring. XOXO